sitting by the window....

i am sitting by the window..... watching the rain....
a vague feeling it evokes... and i just get an urge to have a
cigarette break...
while i smoke i reflect on the times gone by and suddenly
mapping my life in minutes...
as if trying to come up with some quick fix formula...
and there i remind myself that life is not a crossword
which will always fix six up and seven down...
because life's not like that....